i have read your story. in some way we are the same, well ,past pain is happy. you know, i always call failure as milestone ,and i really deem them as a milestone, so indispensible in one's life. before a phase end , no fresh start can happen. and you know an unsucceed end will
lead a prosperous period ,because you will never be allowed by yourself inflated in self esteem. and will be cautious. so the next period will be a totally different term. cherish the precious chance. bless you!